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Wed, 10 Jan 2007 06:02:02 GMT

so i'm pretty sure i have a brain tumor right now. i' getting migraines everyday, i get dizzy sometimes, so much so that i cant stand, and it blows. so i'm fucked.

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 17:54:41 GMT

so i just had a dream about random things, and while having the dream, i dreamt that i was eating a ridiculous amount of twinkies. now i feel gross, fat, and everytime i think about twinkies i feel like throwing up. damn that dream, twinkies used to rock my socks

Sun, 26 Nov 2006 21:33:02 GMT

so i'm pissed off at everything right now. don't know why but i am. and everytime i think about something i get more pissed off, so i should just stop thinking and i don't know, throw myself onto a railroad pike or something. fuckin everything sucks for some reason.

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 23:02:35 GMT

gah, sleeping in used to be so awesome. Now whenever i do, i get a head ache, i'm tired the rest of gthe day, and i can't even think straight. This blows. and now i get to go to work, at least it's at best buy instead of subway. and i get paid tomorrow biatch! ok bye.

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 04:41:14 GMT

sweet mmight be able to go a drift event, finally! it's in belton and yeah.....

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 04:04:57 GMT

well, had orientation today at best buy. A good 6 hours, then right afterwards went on over to subway to close :) yippee. and then I have a physics test in the morrow, then on tuesday I work at subway 8a.m. till 5 p.m. then go to best buy and work 6 pm till 10pm. lol, then I have a test in calculus III on wednesday. I'm tired.Do I have anything new to put on here? No not really, just doing the same damned thing just about everyday. Go to work, and go to school, and study. I swear to god this school crap better pay off, or someone's getting a broken neck.

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 03:10:43 GMT

don't you hate that feeling of wanting to go home, but not being able to? And knowing you may never be able to? that's how i feel right now, and then i get really tired. Kinda wierd.
Any way, I applied to best buy, and have been offered a job there. All i gotta do is submit a drug test, and then i have orientation next sunday. 9 dollars an hour. Put in my week and a halfs notice to subway, and my manager was pissed. Kinda felt bad, but then the thought of 9 DOLLARS AN HOUR kicked in. Turns out they were planning on "secretly and ambiguously" going to train me to be the store manager for when the current manager leaves. Oh well, nine dollars an hour.

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 07:56:14 GMT

hmmmmmmm, let me try a semi-drunken post. First ever! Well party whent well, people are still over chillin' and playin fuzion frenzy. While I, sadly am all alone on the computer. :) oh well got to clean up, I think i did a good job. And I also think it was a very awesome party. ESPECIALLY for being last minute! :) awesomeness me thinks.....well hope everyone had fun. and now everyone knows where i live :O

DAMMIT

Fri, 29 Sep 2006 13:51:07 GMT

Fucking Fuck Fuckity Fuck Fuck FUCK! Dammit, I can't go to a research presentation, that I was seriously fucking looking fucking forward to. {Friday September 29, 4:00 PM, Dr. Marshall Onellion: Ultrafast and other light experiments} There are presentations going to select a new chair for the physics dept. (because last year the previous chair had died in a motor-cycle accident), and for interviews, the possible chairs have to give presentations of research that they have been conducting.
God Fucking Dammit! This presentation was mine, I seriously fucking wanted to see it. Not only out of interest for the subject, but also because I plan to research light as particles and what not, and I really thought that this presentation would provide me with a vast amount of help. But nooooooo, I have to go pick up my mom from work, and take my brother to work. FUCK!!!! I don't know maybe i'll track this guy down, and strike a convo, and maybe he can help me in this. Hopefully he becomes chair, and I can work with him often. Fuck.

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 05:34:20 GMT

meh, i don't know a crap load of things. I am like 99% sure that i am retarded, and all around stupid. I know way too little to say anything about anything. I guess that's why I like to listen to people talk and converse about various things. I can honestly say that losing responsibility of ones self is kind of relieving. I guess sometimes you want to say "hey, I don't want to care, so therefore I should probably let myself go and do what ever my mind wants without any constraints." Can't really say that I've had that experience though. I say "i'm tired" alot. But that's because I really am. I mean most of the time, it's not just the physical exhaustion, it's all mental. I can handle physical exhaustion, however mental exhaustion is much more dificult to remedy. It all stays and builds until you fix the problems that litter your mind. Maybe I focus too much on the loose ends in life. But to me, it feels like that's what my life most consists of, loose ends. I can't do what I really want to do. I feel that I need to grow up, and mature into something more. I feel like there are things in my life that are more than great however, alot in my life is less than shit. But I always keep in mind that these worries, and strains are all in my frame of reference. If these circumstances, not all but some, were to be applied into another's frame, would the emotion and stress have a lesser extent? What can I do? What do i NEED to do? Do what you gotta do, and do it now.

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 14:16:55 GMT

well, i feel like just collapsing. Getting up at 6 a.m. just about every morning, and going to bed at about 3 a.m. kind of gets to you after the second the week. Actually focusing on work and school sucks, i just want a real job with salary, and i want to get my own place. I swear, this hard work better pay off, and when it does, it all just go to the damned cars. fuck. whatever.

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 06:06:04 GMT

been a while, but here goes. updates as of yet, my cars suck. while on the south padre trip, car broke down due to alternator problems, OK so i get that fixed, with $600. no problem, i should still come into about $800, all profit, from working and what not. nope, car breaks down again (or is beginning to) due to clutch. now it's gonna be $900. basically fucked. ok, so i'll buy some time by trying to fix my brother's car so i can use that (reverse doesn't work and no fifth gear, and is now smoking) all problems might be able to fix with not THAT much trouble. however, come to find out; my brothers car has no registration, inspection, OR license plates. SO gotta do something since i commute to san marcos and buda just about everyday. :)
besides that, not too bad. kinda getting burnt out on work, 40+ hours, and trying to actually focus on school, not good. still debating about japan stuffidz. such as either going during the summer or just up and deciding within the next few days to go during the spring. and if i DO decide to go during the spring, it's a FINAL decision. I was going to go during this fall, but pussed out and didn't due to personal reasons. but all in all summed up, i pussed out. however, whatever i decide for japan, it will be set in stone and marked in the history pages. money isn't that much of an issue, because my grandparents will pay for it, so that's cool. i guess i'll try and keep this updated, might as well i suppose. but gotta go to bed, since i get up at like 6 am every morning. oh well, bye bye

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 03:28:18 GMT

well, it's kind of frustating to have a semi-rich family. My aunt called me up saying that she knows that mom and dad have been struggling with finances and all, especially with me in school. She says that if i can maintain a B average, the family would pay for my school and board and all that. Thing is, my mom and dad have always depended on them, and i don't want to end up depending on them. Either i take the offer, or I can try and work at motorola, and build up the cash. If i work at motorola i can work 12 hour days, for $10-13 an hour. Still up in the air.

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 18:01:50 GMT

i'm pretty sure i'm gonna get a tattoo! can't wait and can't decide on one.

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 17:03:23 GMT

i have a new car! other one had to get totaled, because apparently it was cheaper to just compensate me for what the car was worth, instead of just fixing the damn thing. Anyway, it's a ford focus, a hatchback, and a manual. Only things wrong with it is that it's a tad bit small, the passenger seat doesn't recline back (although it's at a fine position of reclination), and the passenger side mirror is just craptified. Other than that it's a nice little car which i will be using for like the next 4 years or so, unless the insurance decides to total this one too. :)

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 06:27:44 GMT

i am totally inebriated...........

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 02:16:15 GMT

Well, High School is back in, and like two weeks later Texas State also goes back. I get to go back to the dorms next week, and I gotta lug all my crap back over there. I have my schedule for this semester figured out but I need to switch crap around. I seriously do not want to take calculus 3. I'm gonna try and get only tuesday and Thursday classes, with the exception of Japanese. I guess work is good. It's easy and i get 50% off. I'm looking for an apartment and I hope to live by myself that would be great. More than likely it won't even be in San Marcos; probably in Buda or by I-35 or somethin. I just bought We love katamari and holy crap it is out there. I also bought star wars battle front 2. Any game in which you get to be Yoda, totally kicks major ass. That is the life of me, and I am pretty much bored

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 04:46:41 GMT

Semester has ended and what not, and I made 2 B's and 2 C's . Not too bad me thinks for like never studying and being ridiculously burnt out. After this next semester I'll probably take a semester off or somethin. I would take this semester off, but I have a contract with the school and what not. Christmas is quickly coming, and it's all good. Thank god for the winter break. Went to Fran's B-day party. And it was definitely fun. I need to go to another party before school starts, that would be fun and delightful. Well, not really doing anything for Christmas or New Year's, and yeah.........Alisha posted pictures from Fran's B-Day party on the facebook. Humorous pictures indeed. :)

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 17:28:21 GMT

well, when things get good, things can get worse. I had to pay a 200$ fine yesterday. But I did'nt have my car because I had to leave it at work on Wed.. Reason why, is cuz my car had completely frozen over, and I have no heater or defroster. So if i had even scraped off all the ice, it still would have iced over on the way back to San Marcos. It had iced over when I drove to subway from san marcos, the windshield just wiped on top of the ice so I had to stick my head outside of the window in order to see. Anyways, since I couldn't go to court yesterday for my show-cause hearing, I am having a warant made out, unless I can pay that thing ASAP. so hopefuly I can pay it today. And as for the finals. I may or may not pass calculus 2, probably passed sociology, probably/hopefully pass japanese, probably pass physics, i just don't know because of that damned lab. I've been really lazy, and tired, and I just want to take a semester off. And today I feel incredibly sick and i still have alot to do. Oh well, i guess i'll just have to get over being sick and get to the stuff that I have to do.

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 15:11:14 GMT

i forgot to announce.........I have a fuckin job! final-freakin-ly. I'm workin over at the subway in buda. That sucker gets busy. But I am on my way to becoming a subway makin machine. :D Only thing is, I still don't know what I'm makin :P What else is goin down? ah yes, Ralph is in fuckin town! hooray! and school has like a week or so left, so awesome. I guess things are starting to look up. I'm still burnt out on school; I don't wanna go anymore, but I have to, so I guess I will.

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 18:22:20 GMT

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Mon, 07 Nov 2005 15:40:29 GMT

"I'm so tired." That's all I can say lately. Yet I have to keep going on throughout this whole ordeal of college. I'm just so tired. I'm tired every day, I don't wanna do it anymore, why is it so tedious? I know I can do better, but I don't. People keep saying it will benefit in the end. I guess I have no other choice but to see it out. I need a job. Had two interviews, didn't get anything, applied at a crap load of places, and no one wants anyone. I don't know how I'm going to pay for next semester, maybe loans, more than likely loans. There are things I wanna do, but it doesn't look like I can, which adds on to the depressing fact that when I'm done with school, then comes work (even though I don't know how I'm going to get a job), and I don't think I can see the chance to do things I want to. Oh well, this is life, and after school comes work, and that's the way it goes I suppose. Well, I signed up for classes next semester, I got 17 hours next semester I think, if I can find some way to pay the min. due. But this is the way my schedule goes next semester as I want it.

English Lit. -1600
Japanese 2nd. year 2nd. semester
Calculus 3
Soccer
Physics electricity and magnetism
and 2nd. year political science

Hooray I suppose. I think I need to get out more or something.

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 14:43:27 GMT

well this week or two has not been so out of the ordinary or exciting for that matter, more like stressfull. Especially considering that I still do not have a job, I think i've been doing well for the past 5 months without having a job. But I should be getting the rest of my grant money by at most the 30th. My mom also had to get an operation for a hernia, i think that's what it was, but she prettymessed up right now, and that's gonna hurt in the pocket book. The whole money situation while in college sucks, if i had known this i would started saving from my first job and what not. But I've been rather lazy and I don't like it. I'm used to going to school, then in my break i study, then work, get home go to sleep. But now that I don't have a job, i'm getting seriously lazy, and i don't like it! But I have an interview today with target at 3, so hopefully it goes well. :) I'm fucking tired. Not only physically, but mentally do to the stresses of reality. kinda sucks. life sucks sometimes.

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 19:19:54 GMT

dammit, seriously! I fucking hate not having a job. I'm just spending and spending on school, and nothing comes back to me. So I'm just lil' bit pissed off. I've applied to like 4 or 5 different places, and I follow up on the application, and the managers are just like constantly not there. If I can't find a place by like sat. or something, I'm just going to apply at a food place like McDonalds, or somethin like that. I'm desperate!!!!!

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 17:39:18 GMT

I'm just chillin here in my dorm at blanco hall......and this dorm is much much much better than that crap of a dorm I stayed at last year. One problem with the dorms this year though is that Xbox live is a little shaky.........but we put up the wallscrolls and posters yesterday, and it looks friggin sweet. And the third roommate doesn't seem too bad right now, but that's the way my last roommate seemed at first, and he turned out to be rather jackassish. Oh well, school starts wednesday, and I have 8 o'clock classes in the morning mon.-fri. kinda sucks....oh well. I guess hopefully in the end it will all be worth the trouble.